31st of March 2022
Today, I still don't have any motivation to go to the university and get my works done. I'm too lazy and the one that should be blame is my menstrual cycle. My supervisor texted me, asking me about the work that should have done before. I chose to ignore it until she called me. I guess, I will forever be the villain character in my master's story. Again, I drove my sister to the clinic for a blood test. And this time, it takes longer time than before to the point that I need to ask the nurse to use their toilet. Her white blood cell started to get better. However, her platelet count still in low concentration. Her lips too dry. So I bought some soy milk for her to drink. Tomorrow, my other sister will bring her to the doctor. Hoping it will give us a better day. Next week, she will be at school to learn things face-to-face. I don't want things to get postponed again. I'm exhausted already.
My brother in law's cousin was involved in an accident two weeks ago. He rides from here to Pahang, just to eat Ikan Patin Masak Tempoyak. On his way to go there, he fell by himself. At first, he said that he was okay. He can get up and ride his motorbike again. But when he did a simple medical checkup at a hospital in Melaka, his condition started to drop. He was actually having concussion at that time, but no one knows. Now, he in comatose or vegetative state after the third surgeries. Some people said that the way he fell from his motorbike was weird. Like, he passed out on his motorbike first and fell because he was losing the control. It might be true because he stayed out late the night before, modifying his motorbike. Lack of sleep may lead to various things such as micro sleep and burst on arteries. I don't even know the real story behind it, but I hope, he can get to his family as soon as possible. And if, his time is coming, may the people who will be left behind are strong to live after this. Don't even get to say goodbye, is a sad feeling, right?
We gave each other a cringy pick up line. You are happy about it. I know, the time has come and you are stressing about it. That is why I'm trying my best, embrace myself to get out of my comfort zone and send you some cringe texts. You laugh. I hope you are happy. What I say to you tonight, I mean it. I really do not care about your result. It is nothing. As long ad you have something we called as common sense, a great mind, you respect me and a beautiful attitude. There are a lot of smart and genius people in this world, but to find the one that has empathy, responsible and willing to sacrifice something is rare. I hope that are what made you now. I hope I have got the right one. I hope all of this, is you.