30th of March 2022
I have got this feeling that my left eyes started to get a stye (ketumbit) last night. It is becoming uncomfortable to close the lid of my eyes. I talked to you about it. And you suggested to put a piece of garlic on the infected area. Is it hurt? Of course, it is absolutely hurt. I'm crying. But the good thing is, the mom of the stye just appeared in a day. It is so quick. I got it burst this evening. And It feels like heaven. But it still inflames. I guess, I need to wait for tomorrow. And I will gonna blow it again. We started to get back on the track as we are before. You calm me by saying, "I love you" again, knowing how much I felt disturbed last night. And you just proud of me even my contribution for today is driving. Today is my first day of the period, and your words just made my day. Thank you, sweetheart.
I'm having a different opinion with my mom regarding the importance of sharing the problems. My mom stated that, why we should share our problems with other human beings when you have your One and Only, God? He is the One that can help you through all of this sh*t in this world. Why would you need anyone else? Well, that is what she said and I'm absolutely, strongly disagree with her. For sure, I'm not denying the power of God in helping, assisting and fixing our problems. But the main reason we run to our safe person is not to hear any solution. We just want to be heard. We just want some place where there is a pair of ear that just listens to what troublesome us and not being so cocky about it. A person that knows those problems are caused by us but still choose to not blame us. A home that knows that we don't want all of these things to be happening but it already happened anyways. We don't want any advices. If we really want advices, we will go to the therapist. We just want someone to say that we already do our best. That it is enough to be proud of. Or just someone that continually reminds us that they still love us no matter how things going to happen. Are we asking too much? Is it the wrong thing to do? Do sharing problems with our specific person is not a normal thing to do? I don't know. But one thing for sure, even though sharing our concerns does not divide the worries in it, does not mean it is useless. It calms you, only when you share it with the right person. And for now, he still my right decision.
I drove Wani to Clinic Anika. Her high fever does not seem to be gone since last Saturday. And today is Wednesday already. Turns out, she is having Dengue fever. Great. Now, I need to drive her everyday to the clinic to do a blood test till she declare as free of Dengue fever again. My dad bought papaya leaf juice for her. According to the people, it will help in curing the disease. Since Dengue fever does not have any specific medicine yet. Because of my curiosity, I tried to taste the juice. Yeah, disgusting. Then, I bought crabs to make her soup. Well, seems like the healthier one ate the most. Farah and her family positive Covid-19. I volunteered myself as her runner. She needs help. And I'm her best friend. This is the least I can do for her and her family. Hoping that you all will get well soon, honey.