08th of April 2022
I ate a bit much this sahur. The food is quite delicious. I love "pajeri nenas" from the stall near Hospital Sentosa. Really sweet. To be honest, all of their food is delicious. After I settled up everything, I took a nap for a while. Then, I woke up this morning and choose violence. I don't want to go to the university. I feel a bit burnout. Not lazy, just don't feel to do anything today. But then, I just forced myself to go there and get my works done since I have got a bunch of lab works this week. If I choose to procrastinate today, it just adds to the need to do list. Does not help me at all. There are too many people in the lab today. The undergraduate students doing their final year project and postgraduate student finishing their researching works. Quite suffocating for me because the lab never be a full house like this. Guess I need to start entering the lab on weekends. Till the end of my study.
I keep suffering a heavy headache lately. I don't know why. Is it because of the presentation yesterday? Do I stress too much? But last night, I'm craving for something sweet. I really want to drink sweet things. So, I went out with my mom to the NSK. And before that, I went to my friend's house. He asks me to buy him butterscotch bread because he may not fasting tomorrow. Well, I get it. My mom accompanied me to go to his house because at night, his house is quite scary. Then, we go to the NSK. The main intention is to go to the Mr DIY shop to buy some stuffs, especially my slippers. It is already worn out. But when my mom saw the escalator broken for both sides, we just proceeded to buy ice blended only. And maybe, the luck is on my side today. I get the chocolate ice blended. Finally. We got home, and I just drank the whole cup without sharing with anyone else and my headache get a little bit okay, I guess. But today, it happened again. I still get the same headache at the same place. Should I go to the doctor? Should I be worried about this? Do I really lack of sugar in my body as my mom predicted? I want to take the paracetamol to slow down the pain. But, I'm scared that I may get addicted to it. Because I just ate a few weeks ago. What is wrong with me?
We both stayed up too late last night. Talking about anything that crossed our mind. To be honest, I really miss this kind of conversation between us. When there is no distraction. Just you and me. And at the end of the conversation, before you fall asleep, you said that you love me. I love it, and I love the fact that those are the last words you said before you fall asleep. And I'm the last person crossing your mind before you fall asleep. Yeah, you left me hanging, but with a good reason. I have got work to do tomorrow. I need to go to the lab and finishing my lab works. If I want to be selfish, I will ask you to go there with me. But, nahh, I'm good. Like I said to you yesterday, I'm not gonna ask you out if I know for sure that you will refuse me. It is hurt. Because right now, I really miss you so much.