26th of April 2022
My back pain getting worse last night. I did not do any laundry, even setting up the table to eat. It is not that I am lazy, but getting sore back really kill the mood to do any household chores. Then, my mom asked me to drive my brother and his wife back to their home in Shah Alam. My brother already offered to drive first, but I was refused because to move from one place to another place also suffering me. My mom said that I am driving too fast because it just took me a short amount time to send them and return back to my home. Then, I am asking my sister who was sitting beside me at that time, "Do I?". She just said that I was driving like I use to be. I am not obsessed with fast things, right?
I might be really busy for today. This morning, my brother texted me again, wanting to borrow from me some money. His wife is suffering high fever right now and he just panics. I am telling him that I was gonna drive her wife to the nearest clinic. But first, he needs to wait for me finish up my works here, in the lab. Actually, I have my own plan. I need to buy my cat's food and litter, then go to the Lotus's Supermarket to buy groceries. Turns out, I my destination after this was added from two to four. My brother's house and Research Management Center (UiTM) to send some paper. God, I might not get some time to eat and breaking my faking fast. Yesterday, I read my texts with my ex when I'm in foundation study. Cannot believe how clingy, I was at that time. That time, we were happy. You cannot deny it. Even though we are not in a good terms anymore. You still the one that makes me happy for once. I am sorry for my mistake. I will pray for your happiness. Let us not meet each other again. Let us just be strangers to each other again. Not because I hate you. Just because this is the perfect way to move on from our history and focus to our partners in the future. Goodbye.
You are worrying about me. My back pain forced me to use almost a box of Salonpas to reduce the aches. I woke up this morning smelled like a whole medicine oil slurred on my body, You are telling me that I should not forget to eat or drink something today. I like this side of you. Reminding me this little thing. Thank you. You are starting to change too. Every time you are going out, you informed me first. Just like what you want me to do to you, you do it to me too. I am hoping that we become more mature and better people after this. And I really hope that I am becoming mature in this relationship. Because from what I have seen, the childish one is absolutely me.